And do I apologise? Well yes most of the time I do.
I didn’t realise that was what I was doing until I read Stop with the still and thought why am I saying it apologetically? At what age does breastfeeding becoming unacceptable or taboo?
In a long-standing battle between the boob and the bottle, there’s always going to be opinions that divide the masses. I’ve breastfed all my babies, I know the benefits but I have never judged another mum for their choice.
It’s their choice how they feed, no one elses.
Feeding your baby is a deeply personal thing, and yet over the years I’ve seen both breastfeeding and bottle feeding mums acting uneasy with their choice. I would never push my opinion onto another mum, I don’t know why they made that choice. But it’s their decision they made and I respect that.
So why am I so apologetic about still feeding my 12 month old?
Is it because he’s able to lift up my top when he’s thirsty?
Is it because he prefers to nurse to sleep?
Or maybe it’s because he’s walking so technically a toddler? He’s an early walker, so would it still be ok if he still crawled?
But despite the World Health Organisation recommending you breastfeed until 2 years, I can’t help feeling like I’m slipping into the controversial world of extended breastfeeding. The one where society thinks that babies should be fully weaned by 1 and when they can ask for it it’s wrong.
I wonder how I’m going to stop and what will replace the comfort he so desperately craves when he’s sad, poorly or tired. But until that time comes I won’t be apologising for feeding my toddler anymore, I’ll just nonchalantly say,
“yes, I am breastfeeding.”